Review – TKFTBA2- Before We Forget

I was feeling under the weather the past few days and to get myself out of the house for a movie helped. I decided to write this to share my thoughts.

Overall, The Kid from The Big Apple 2 got my attention to many issues about family, communication, forgiveness, judgement, childlike playfulness, love, sacrifice, change and the disease called Dementia.  You could hear sniffles here and there as certain parts of the movie do make the audience cry.

This Malaysian made movie has so many elements and values that are slowly missing in families and relationships.  This time Director Jess Teong delivers about dementia and old age where we see dignity in it. I see how grandpa is portrayed to understand his deteriorating memory and he was afraid of causing hurt to his family whilst fear that he would forget his family.  A dilemma I believe most old people will experience.

What is beautiful about this story, that his daughter Sophia and granddaughter Sarah adores Grandpa and their love overcame every obstacles they have.

Sarah and Bao truly show the innocence of children and their positive mindset which we can all use and learn from.  As adults, most of us including me see problems as problems rather than something which we can find solution or alternative to overcome.

Neighbours he had when he was living in the flat were truly family. With their unique behaviours and attitude, they held on to love and friendship and that kept him going for so many years living alone. I love the fact I used to experience such love and friendship from the neighbours, overlooking their inquisitive and ‘kaypo’ (nosy) behaviour.

Sophia’s past with her husband and at first it was all the bad, irresponsible man played by Shaun Tan.  He played his role well and when he told the reasons he left  so that Sophia can graduate (he sacrificed his studies so that financially, he can support her) and how much he regretted not being there to see Sophia succeed, receive their daughter together, change nappies, etc). Whatever the excuse, we do make decisions based on what was right at that time.  Here, the communication between 2 persons is reconciled and mended broken fences which is important.

I love Ah Bao (Jason Tan) fun loving, silly but innocent child character.  He really brings everyone together .  I can say he is the highlight and the hero in the movie.  He teaches us trust, integrity, creativity, how to have fun, how to love, etc.. all the values we have to be.

Ti Lung, the actor who played Grandpa was my hero when he was the Kung Fu (martial arts) movies.  Seeing him at this age was totally a surprise.  He suddenly changed from a kungfu fighting actor to become a frail old man.

I understand that part where he and Ah Meng went to an old folks home to see if he can live there so that he does not burden his daughter. He changed his mind after seeing the condition there and what Ah Meng shared where  he (Ah Meng)  did not have a chance to spend more time with his mother because he put her in a home.  He regretted it.

Grandpa also talked about how he wished he could travel the whole of Malaysia and spend more time with his daughter and Sarah.  The biggest fear is that he would forget them both.

My own father wish was to visit his hometown and we made that wish happen 2 years ago, but sadly he cannot recognise even his own school.  I am glad we took that trip though.

This movie touched the core of my being because I am living with my nearly 90 year old father going through his 2nd childhood.  I admit that I struggle accepting my formerly strong, easy going father to a grumpy, stubborn, lazy old man who at times forget what he does or what he has eaten, he is living in his own time zone; totally not the man I used to know.  He has his moments but it is still alright.  I just thank God he can recognise us at home. Whilst watching the movie, my father flashed through my head and I cried knowing that I have so much I still have to do; to accept my father as he is now and to love him as he is.   I love him and it is my duty to care for him; no home can care for him and my mother like our own.  I am blessed he is still physically alright.

In real life, my father is not like Grandpa, with such good behaviour as he can be quite a handful, like a child who refused to do things when called to, but he has his good times.  Thank God he knows who we are and is still able to argue with us.

Congratulations Jess Teong for one of the best family drama alive.  You truly bring back and remind us the values which we a losing in our current society.  Bring more to our screen such valuable lessons we need.

Whilst my father is breathing, I will do my best to love him and spend that time with him until he goes home to his Maker.  TKFTBA 2 – Before we Forget is a reminder to me of my situation and how I should ‘handle’ it.

Live another day, live it well.  Make it count each day knowing we lived.  –  Catherine Lim


My father enjoying his coffee.



One’s Life Journey

Today, I have met so many people with so many different life story and how they came out strong and persevered.

Best of all coming out still loving and kind although still with feelings of hurt.

Gratitude and sense of abundance are so important elements which we need to hold and send out each day so that blessings continue to be showered on us as we journey each day.

Life is precious and whatever we do today, will affect tomorrow and those we touch.

One’s life journey is truly important and precious no matter where it leads.

How our little actions or even just a smile can actually change or move someone’s heart and even bring joy.


Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. – Mother Teresa





Act of Kindness Today



It’s been a long time since I walked the morning market.  Hustle and bustle of sellers and buyers.  Fresh vegetables, fruits, trinkets, clothes, bags, dry food, canned food, coconut water, breakfast of sorts, you name it, we have it here in Malaysia.

This morning, I got up early and with my sister, Bel, we took a stroll and joined another sister of ours and my oldest niece and had breakfast.  My niece has her favourite stall that sells the freshest cakes and breads and persuaded to see and then I bought a butter cake home for my old folks.

Both my sister and my niece left but l and I sat at the coffeeshop and had our breakfast when a lady with a file came and asked for donation for a underprivileged centred which is in another state up north.  Usually, we reject such request because there are lots of syndicate involved.  However, today Bel decided that she will not question and just gave a small some. Then we asked the lady if she had breakfast and we wanted to buy her a cuppa.  She declined and thanked us for our kindness.

About 2 minutes later, an Indian gentleman approached our table and greeted us.  We know him as he has been selling lottery tickets for many years and he knows that I do not buy them.  Whenever we meet he would pass me but would greet me.  This morning, he asked how we were and that he has not seen me for a while.  We chatted and wanted to buy him a cuppa too but he declined gently and thanked us.  Then I decided that today I will buy from him since we happened to meet.

I  told Bel that 2 people rejected our offer for a cuppa but we contributed to their effort. That was the least we did.

It is somewhat a beautiful and fulfilling morning and the joy and satisfaction feeling inside of us gave us the sense of purpose that our life today is meaningful.  We are creatures of giving and sharing.  Being selfish is not in our system because you will feel dissatisfied and unhappy.  I do.

The rest of the morning after that we went about getting some soil and pots for our plants and Bel did another act of kindness when she asked the workers in the nursery if they wanted coconut water as they were having a quick bite to fill their hunger pangs while entertaining customers.  So we  did.

What a day it has been for us and I should say that our life bank account has some good deposits today.  I look forward to the rest of today and I want to enjoy every moment including writing this.

We received gifts from a good buddy of ours who went overseas just now and we are grateful because those gifts are blessings from above.

How has your day been today?  Celebrate the small happenings thank the Universe for today’s path and the stops we are going to make before the day ends.

Live every moment, and respond rightly to events that occur.  Be a magnet of positivity and greatness.

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let go 3.jpgHave you ever felt in your life where you just cannot find the right prayer some times?   Were there times, you felt you didn’t have any prayer in your mind or heart? Were there moments you were just so overwhelmed with so much of problems and challenges you just don’t know how to pray? What about moments you lose faith that the Universe or God is not on your side you wanted to demand an explanation from Him?

Yes, those were the moments in my life. All my life, I have been taught structured prayers and that those are the prayers to use. As years  went by, with so much of challenges in front of me, I doubted if those prayers were even relevant; it was as though the prayers were not heard at all. It was just empty prayers for me. I wanted something deeper and something more meaningful.

My spiritual journey took me to a very deep experience with my Creator as years went by and when I doubted Him, there would be answers and assurances through angels sent in the form of friends, strangers, homilies and even posters or quotes that would flash in front of my eyes at that point of time.  Amazing ? You bet. Yet, there were times I was so caught up with finding myself, I became blind to His messages.

I was holding on and trying to solve my challenges instead of letting go and empty myself to trust Him. This spiritual awareness slowly became obvious but then, what will happen to the tradition and ways we are supposed to live by? I realized I still can and  at a deeper level because my spiritual relationship with my Creator is deep and profound.

It is so amazing that He has been listening to my search for a deeper relationship and understanding of Him and He has brought me closed to Him through wonderful friends who care to share their lives with me as they themselves have found deep spiritual relationship with God. It is more than just the superficial practice we do every day or every week. A truly spiritual journey with God is one who can

  1.  Understand what it means to let go and let God
  2. What it means to practice unconditional love.
  3. To give of yourself
  4. To share with no expectation
  5. Detachment from things and emotions
  6. Be happy and contented
  7. To give gratitude
  8. Emptying oneself so that one can have Everything

The most important and profound thing I learnt is about just giving gratitude in everything. The only prayer we ever need is just ‘THANK YOU’ to our Creator, for all that we have and for those that we don’t have.I remembered when I was totally empty at point in my life that I felt peace and was filled with that sense of calm and full,  I just kept silent and with felt peace in myself. We all have our own journey and we walk different paths. We all experience spirituality in different ways.

All these years, with all the challenges I faced especially those challenges within me, I have cried out for help to overcome them so I can love and accept ME the Catherine that He created in His Image. As time is not relevant in God’s Time, I found my time is NOW. To Just BE and BEING Catherine is so beautiful and enriching. I found that LOVE of God in Me because My Being is with God and in God. I only need to surrender to empty myself each day for Him to fill it up!

The more, I realise this abundance, the more I receive it and the more I want to give ABUNDANCE. It need not be material things or money; give unconditional love, patience, tolerance, empathy, share knowledge, practice act of kindness in creative and heartful ways. Each day now, I wake up and before I sleep I thank God for His Abundance.

I am truly grateful to my sister in Christ Connie for her spiritual empowerment and my others brothers and sisters of different faiths and life journey who have shared and empowered my life. I know I have also empowered them in my own way.

Whether you believe in God or the Universe or believe nothing, Abundance is there and it is real. Just allow it to come to you and you embrace and send it out to others, more will come to you…

It is difficult and scary sometimes to let go and totally surrender. That’s the challenge of it all. Pray like a little child; trusting and with faith.

My prayer – THANK YOU FOR ABUNDANCE! Even when I feel there is none but deep within I know there is.


The Year of the Monkey.

2016, the year of great adventures and awesome possibilities.  

May we be as active as the Monkey to tirelessly search and achieve our dreams.

Curious like the Monkey to dare to dream and reach our potential.

I wish everyone the best this year.  May your goals and dreams come true.

Remember to share your fortune no matter big or small,  with the less fortunate.  

Giving is Receiving!  Through your generosity, you will receive  A THOUSANDFOLD of Blessings and with FULL OF LOVE in return, GUARANTEED.

Stay Blessed and continue your journey even when it is rocky and stormy.




Memories of Wheel of Fortune

Have you ever experienced times in your life where life was so rocky that you felt as if the world had no more place for you and it would seem that the dark cloud would follow you wherever you go.  Nothing seemed worth living for.  Then as if by some miracle, something good would shake the dark cloud out of the way and lifted up your spirit even for a short time; but enough to lighten the pain in your life?  This was one of those miracle for me.

In year 2000, I went back into my depressive state for months. It was painful because it was of my physical condition that I was jilted.  Anyway, at that time, I was crushed because I gave my full trust and love to the man whom I had so much respect and faith in. Through that pain and suffering, I walked out not allowing myself to dwell into it but it was one of the toughest journey I had ever travelled. I was also suffering from hyperthyroidism at that time . Now that was another journey altogether which I hope to share with you the miracle of it.

I lost my self esteem and I lost my self eventhough I was consciously aware I had to get out of it.  It was as if I was in a dark pit looking for an invisible rope to pull me out of that black dark pit of life.  I lived my life unhappy although externally I would still smile but I was struggling inside.  I prayed and prayed that I could get out of this situation and continue to live my life.  I cannot change my physical disability so that’s that.

At the time, one of my favourite tv show was the local ‘Wheel of Fortune’ and people were talking about how to get in for the audition to be in the game show.  Without a thought, one morning, I decided to just call the tv station and asked about it. I gave my name and told them I was interested to take part in the gameshow.  The voice at the other end said that I would be called for an audition and I would need to wait a month or so.  I left it at that because I did not believe I would be even lucky to be called for an audition  Good fortune was not on my side r so I believed.  2 weeks later, I got a call and was asked to attend a series of tests 3 days’ time.  Was I excited?  I was numb and I could not find my joy. I called my godsister and she accompanied me 3 days later for the tests.

Believe it or not, that took me away from my pain and emotional stress. I had fun with the tests and auditions and I passed.  Of course, as usual, people were looking at a woman with a leg brace going for audition and wondering what can I do. I had to act out a script, be interviewed, take photo shoots, etc.  I really had fun and laughed so much doing them.  I did it and I got through into the game show.  Throughout the game show, I discovered how good I was and my confidence level was challenged. Still it was a great learning experience and I was in a different kind of world for a short time; short enough to help me heal a little bit more and gave me my self confidence back.  I got through up to the semi finals.  I was disappointed I could not get to the finals but it was, I believe a distraction for me from the Almighty.  It was indeed a miracle and a dream come true.  I  can still feel the joy and excitement today as I am writing this.  The chandelier I won is lighting up my home. I still can talk about it with excitement and pride.

I am blessed to be watched over by my guardian angels because, something good always happens when I am in my dark moments.  The Wheel of Fortune got me out of the dark pit and it helped me avoid dwelling over my pain of being rejected and cheated.  Now as I think over the incident, I no longer feel anything.  It’s just a passing memory and experience.  I am a better person today.

People treat imperfection like a disease and in the end, they are the ones who are diseased. I count my blessings and whether I want to experience those dark roads, it’s really not up to me but I know there’s always hope and light at the end of it.  This is one of my champion moments where I find my strength I have forgotten I had.  My physical imperfection is my greatest blessing because it has power in it.  After all, God blessed it and blessed me.

“You’re imperfect, and you’re wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging”   – Brene Brown





28356_395491988619_7743438_nI am reminiscing one of my champion moments to remind myself what I am capable of.  One of them was the time when I just decided to try parasailing.

That was in the 90’s and it was in Penang, I would just decide to go for a holiday to visit my friend and colleague then.  He  and his wife took me to the beach and there I was fascinated about being up in the sky on parachute.

I saw from a distance a man was being pulled by a speedboat and then the boat stopped and the man was still flying but suddenly he fell into the water when the wind stopped blowing.   I was excited and asked the operator about the parasail and if I could fly because I cannot run.  I saw one person had to run while being pulled by the speedboat.  He said I need not run and so I decided to do it.  Without a thought I said I  want to go up on my own without assistance.  And so I was being prepared for my flight up.

No thought came to mind except wanting to be up there in the sky like a bird.

I was pulled up by the speedboat so fast  when I reached up the sky, I have never felt so free and so happy in my life.  I understand what a bird’s eye view mean and how a bird’s  ability to feel free. I thoroughly enjoyed the moment.  I was called out of my happiness and trance in a very short time when the operator shouted me to pull the cord to come down.  I refused because it was not long.  He insisted because the wind slowly becoming strong.  I reluctantly pulled the cord and landed on the sandy beach.  I landed on my bum on the sandy beach.  It was the best although short moment of glory for me.  It really, really felt so good.  I can still feel it now.  I am anchoring this feeling right now.  Then  my colleague’s wife wanted to fly but got one of the operators to fly with her.

One American lady came up to me and asked me how it was and I shared the excitement with her.  She said I was so brave because she was still contemplating of doing something different that day being her 50 birthday.  I encouraged her to do it. Not sure if she did or not.

I shared my excitement and my experience with my friends and then my excitement died down when they told me horrible stories about parasailing. I was glad I did not hear anything negative when I was in Penang.

You see, I am someone who takes chances in life when I was younger.  As I grew older over the years and through the conditioning of my surrounding, I became somewhat a person who began to fear starting anything.  Then of late I realized how a coward I have become when I look back after that parasailing experience, I have lost my own potential.

I dared live life to the fullest without a thought because being alive each day is a risk.  I have just recently been brought back to this beautiful exciting memories as I needed to achieve my goal and through NLP coaching exercise, it has helped me realise my potential and my qualities are still there (which I have buried deep in my unconscious level) and to bring it forward so that I can fully reach my potential and goals in the future.

Those who know me know that my caliper can never limit me to do anything I put my heart into.  Perhaps I need to do twice or three times harder.   It is my limiting belief that stops me.

As I look back again, yes, I have achieved so many things I wanted to do.  There were difficult moments. I  was a semi finalist for the local Wheel of Fortune, acted in stage plays, volunteer for charity works, swim, walk 5 km marathons, bought a tricycle so I can cycle, drive, dance, sing, and training, coaching, conduct laughter therapy, and looking forward to be a motivational speaker to change lives and make a difference.