It has been a while since I have met anyone from my distant past during my youth where my life was filled with questions where life had no purpose.
For the past months, I was busy with work and being a daughter to my elderly parents and reflecting on where God wanted me to go. Placing my trust in my creator is one of those where it challenges me to let go of control and allowing Him to journey with me.
Anyway, back to my meeting people of my distant past as a youth. This came to be as this gnawing question “how has my life impacted or just by being me, has any meaning at all, especially during the years where everything seemed wrong, and when I was about to give up.” That gnawing question was answered a couple of days ago.
A few months ago, I was in a place of gathering and from a far a guy smiled at me and then walked into the hall. He looked familiar and yet I was not sure. Then a few days ago, I was back there again and he was seated a few rows behind me. After the event was over, I walked towards him and called his name ( I was very sure). His eyes sparkled and he smiled and said, “You remembered my name”. He quickly told he me was sick and also lost a leg and his memory. He forgot almost everything about his life. Slowly, he could remember certain things and he said he remembered me (except my name). His memory told him that I am someone from his past and then he remembered how I inspired him because of my disability and being able to dance so well in functions. He loved to sing and we used sing together. After his sickness 7 years ago, he is now teaching music at home but has not sung. I encouraged him to sing again and I know he can.
We were not close but we were close enough to enjoy each other’s company whenever we met for singing and practice those days. Somehow, we lost contact and that was more than 20 years.
In that 10 minutes of just getting acquainted again (did not get to details of his sickness which he said he would want to share with me more as he died and came back to life again), I learned so much about him and myself. He is strong and uplifted. The man with so much joy in his life despite his predicament. He told me he remembered always how inspired he was of me and that I am strength and a positive energy to those I am with.
I am so humbled by his encouragement and affirmation because as a youth, with so much of anger, questions about my existence, I could still inspire others by just being me.
After more than 20 years, I would say that this message gave me the opportunity to share perhaps with young people of today that –
No matter how shitty life was, as a human being, we are created for a purpose even when we are at our lowest point in life. We only just keep pushing forward and live. JUST LIVE.
Be curious, be adventurous, go out for activities that you like. Get involved in charity works, serve the community, dance, sing; just avoid illegal stuff. The more you get involved, you meet people ; whether those who will encourage you or ‘trample’ you – they are actually helping you to grow. Communicate (not fight or argue) with you family members, especially your parents. I know that parents are dominating but they do it our of love. Be patient.
The more you keep going the more you grow and see who you are and able to grow from strength to strength and even, at the same time, inspire someone or two during your journey. The tougher your journey, the stronger you are. No matter how bad your storm of life is, the sun will always shine at the end of it all. That’s how life is. JUST DON’T GIVE UP !!!!!
What you ask will be answered, in HIS TIME! Trust yourself because HE created you! He cannot be wrong to create you!
I am writing this as a reminder to myself or anyone who may need this message.
My prayer is that life will lead you to where you want to go. Journey it with faith and prayer. Angels are around to guide you. ‘Devils’ too… they teach you many things of what you should not become.
Ask for help; Learn and learn and keep learning and then share. Give yourself to others in need.
We are reflections of each other. Those who criticize you have mirrors that need cleaning, that’s all. They cannot see more of themselves.
Most importantly, overcome yourself with victory!